Day Two.
Woke up almost on time.
Got 20 minutes of reading this morning.
Today feels better,
more comfortable.
Then again tuesdays and thursdays always do.
Just hurts my heart.
48 hours have passed, still no sign of someone.
I try not to think about things,
but these thoughts just keep consuming my head.
I pray that God strips those away,
and allows me to see the good in what I am doing.

Tomorrow is the lake retreat.
It is much needed.
Things with my parents feel much better.
Dont make mistakes,
it takes forever to forgive.
Atleast in my family.

So for now….
I’m off to do homework,
that I was too lazy to do yesterday :/

Well. Today is day one of trying to change my life.

I had a revelation just a few days ago. I realized that I’ve changed, that I’ve hit a plateau in my life. A plateau that I need to break free from. My past is NOT going to predict my future and I’m done allowing it to do that. Today was Day One of attempting to wake up earlier than bible college to read my bible. I’ve realized I really need to get the Word of God in me. It’s more important than I thought.
It was harder than I thought. I woke up and had like 20 minutes to read in class. So that was good. Tomorrow is another day and another chance. Let’s hope I make it.

I’m just upset. With everything. To be honest.

I’ve commited to a year of Bible College. But along with that came, Kids Ministry, a connect group, and alot of extra homework….. I know I can do it.
But to throw in the mix, I still have Gainesville and work with that. I have regular church and BYFY.
Mixed with starting to like a guy, who doesn’t want me to persue him and right now have barely talked to him.

How am I to deal with it all?

That’s where God comes in, and thank you Lord for being there.
I’m broken, and chained. I need to be set free.

More to come

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